Sheet!!!!

What will go more to happen to us?

Yesterday my husband told me that we don't going to be able to make FIV in Fev2007 as it was forecast due to many!
6000€!!! We can't afford it!

The life isn't going that way he planed and the it missing work, sheet, sheet .....  This to add to a series of less good things that they have happened in them last, left me destroced!

I was preparing a special weekend for us, and now I have to come to work (the least one of us earns some money .....).

 It seems that somebody supplicated a plague ,therefore the bad events has been in one by one!
 I'm distroced!!!!

Have a nice weekend becouse mine it goes to be to work!

"My airplane"

Another weekend passed, the time starts to be rainy, proper for the time of the year ..... and the mood starts to be as the time…. lolol

I'm very busy at work but now it's obliged to get a eye to my favorite site APF!!!!

I'm in charge of that king of airplane EMBRAER LEGACY, since they promoved me for a civilian aviation(I used to work with military ones, C130, P3) and I enjoy it very much!!!!

I'm so sad about what happened with Susana Pina!

God, I do not know where are You in these hours!
I'm so sad and chocked with what happened with Susana ...... 16 years of fight, as much pain, as much suffering and when she thought that she had reached her girls ...... she lost them at 23 weeks pregnancy!

Unfare, very unfare, this life!

I'm still saying that I'll never understand this: so many woman  give birth childs and childs and give them bed treatments to those children and us that want so such a baby!

What world this!!! ......

I'm with very busy, and I passed for some bad things this week ..... I was one very complicated week ......, but can hundle! I wait that the weekend arrives fast to rest a little and to recharge batteries for the next one that seems to be full!

Nice weekend for all and (if that it's possible) and if someone speek to Susana, tell her I'm sendig a Very big hug full of love!

He will be that God knows what makes? Sometimes I doubt, but we only will see as time goes by .....

September 19th , day to laugh or to cry???

Today, it's September 19th, 2006….

25 years ago,  my old sister was married!!!
Whem they we're dating, my mom send all the times with them, to guard my sister - if it was possible - and my future brother-in-law used to buy me ice creams and sending me for the park!!

Smart guy!!!!

As we had so much complicity they promissed me that I would be the Godmother of their first child Paula, my older niece and my pricess!!

I adore my goddaughter, she was my ring's girl on my marriage .... if God want she'll be the godmother of my first child too!!!

 9 years ago, was born my Leticia niece… Ticha, for the family…. she doen't stop quiet! Only seen!

Last year, unhappyly we woke up at 06:00 of the morning with the telephone ringing ..... was Caty my brother-in-law crying..... my mother-in-law had died suddendly with a cardiac attack!

Rest in peace!

Therefore, I don't know if I'm happy or if I cry!!!!!

Monday morning....urggggg

Plus a weekend passed, plus a monday ......... I was not able to go to have tee with the girls on Saturday, therefore I had unexpected visits for the lunch ..... but, not bad after all, therefore I did not seen them for years......

Sunday was day to go to lunch with the family therefore it was the  nephew Ivo birthday - 12 years old  (he thought that already he is a man, imagine), until he auto-intitles himself" metrossexual" ….there…

 there, brother, the problems that you'll going to have with your youngling! Yes becouse he already delay mounts of time to prepare himself….I could say it, I saw in the last vacations!

I finished for being with a terrible migraine, but in the end of the night found what it was: the blood pressure was high with the cooked ones of my sister-in-law which I couldn't resist!
She abused of the salt.
I took a diuretic and the thing already came back to the normal!

Today i's monday, working day .....,  what difficult it is!!!! 

The litlles ones!

How cute they are, dont't they????

Tee in Vasco da Gama shopping center

I am not in better mood , but the APF's girls had insisted as much that today, when I leave the work, I'm  going to buy a blue lace and there I tomorrow I'm going to have a tee with them!

I need to laugh a litlle!!!!!

I need to talk.....

I thought that after crying years and years, I was strong enough and  nothing related with infertility could make me  to fall down ....... pure deceit!

Soon of the morning, when I arrived at work, as it was early, i opened the APF site and I found  the testemonys of our friends of struggled and scratch! More I read, more tears rolled in my face....... it's amasing! The Stardust, the Susana, the Manuela and the Susana Portela had to say for words everything what I was felt and still feel ..... the difference is that they already had reached its pregnancies and I'm still in my struggled ..... and follow asking: UNTIL WHEN?

Sincerely, it wasn't the place nor the hour for all this crying, but I couldn't stop myself ...... incredible as all of us feel in the same way!

When my boss arrived, he didn't understand nothing, still mumbled something as it better I go home to rest, but in that wy, I would nevercome to work….
I went to WC, wash my face and here I am now to relieve!

I try to grasp me the hope of the adoption, but I'm still without understanding the reason! I think that it is more easy when is known that endometriosis is had, obstructed tubes or if it has something in concret to roll up sleeves and to fight against, now UNEXPLAIND INFERTILITY? somebody can understand? Some of you that has been diagnosised this type of infertility can to understand the reason? I sincerely can't!

Yupiiiiiiiiii ...... for shaving!!!

For relax!!!

lololololololol

He's very happy!!!

visits!

Today of morning I had visits ...... here it is the Mr Red! (Period)

It had to be same of stress, therefore I am like a British clock. In 2oo2 I passed for this! But soon, for the next month we'll have more intensive work in the ovulation period…. lol

Thans for the concern.

Today I'm not in a better mood.....

.... or better, I am tired, I want to sleep .....

I had a weekend and one day more off with my nephews in my house and as you can imagine….it was hard!

In the deep one I don't mind becouse I love them very much and they fulling the house and give me many joys, mainly Diogo that is from the a small village of the North of country. He's very sweety!!!

It's a shame that  he lives between  a "war" of his parents .....


Here I am back to work and I don't have much to do .... only type some boring reports, inventories, etc….

 Also I have to organize an event therefore we're going to have visits from the portuguese government and people from Brazil and Belgium at 15:00 in order to catch more customers!

I used the advantage in my lunch time to see the news in PORTUGUESE INFERTILITY ASSOCIATION's forum, the APF   … and a meeting will have place in Lisbon this saturday.

 Well….I'm going to work, before the visits arrive.

See you!

Hello everybody!

Hi!

I've decided to open this blog to shar with the all the world my situation, my feelings ans my struggled about the infertility!

My name is Jú, I'm 40 years old portuguese woman, i'm married since December 9th, 1988 and trying to be pregnant for sereval years!

After many examinations, where everything was well, doctors diagnosised  us UNPEXPLAINED INFERTILITY, that is, without apparent cause!

The doctor explained that I could easily be pregnant of another man and my husband could easily pregnant another woman, but I had chosse him to  be father of my children, therefore is he who I love, he have the qualities and habilities I would like to see in my children!

The miracle does not happen easily and when it happened, I ended for losing my babys....... now I still saving money for new treatment and hopping that also with us happen “the miracle of life” therefore the hope is the last one to die .....

I apologize about my english, but i'll try to do my best!