Marry Christmas and Happy new year!

We're going to London for a week!

London was very funny….I enjoyed so much!

Is a big city, very pretty city in the center (where it has the Big Ben, the Queen Palace, the parliament etc), but on the suburbs where people living is a little shady beyond the clouds that are characteristic of the city, those red bricks that they use for the construction don't help much!

But no doubts that it was good to see and to be able to still give to more value to our country near the sea!

If we were different politicians, we're in the paradise! lolololol

We walked a lot, we dated a lot and we din't shopping becouse thins were very expensive comparing wiht Lisbon!!!!

Here some photos to remember!

Finally the APF girls had a lunch together!!!!

It's was nice.

Thank you girls!

Gabriel was born

Isn't he so cute?

Gabriel is my husband's nice son!!!

One break....

I need to stop a litlle and find myself!

I missing myself and need to find me and stay alone with myself.

Just for a while......

Mr Red, again.....bah

It didn't happen on this cycle, once more!!!

I'm tired, and doctor send me home for 15 days.

I have to start analisis or see a psychologist.

husband quarrel

Today I am not in a bettermood! Nor I would have writting here  ......

I had a big quarrel with my husband, and guess the reason?

Money for the treatments!!!!!

Happy birthday to me!

Today it is my bithday!

One mor year and nothing of stork!

I don't know if I must be sad, or if I must commemorate one more year!

Becouse it was one more year and I didn't reach my baby, and otherway the age are my worse enimy!!!

For now decided that I'm going to celebrate ......

I go to take a bubblebath, go to produce myself I go to take a walk!

Later, dinner out with hubby!

Hard home work weekend

This must have been a weekend of " hard home work" but the things had not run very well .....

Some cousins come from Greece suddenly and " they had to stay" here in house! They go here to be 15 days and my husband did not have courage of denying stay to them…. all the people of the family pushed them for here with the excuse of that we are whom have a big house and as we do not have children .....

I was sad becouse we felt conditioned on our "hard wome work"
I started today with utrogestan, but sincerely I am not nothing hopeful on this cycle (first the cold, now this).

I'm felling that we wasted money, time, money and more hormones that drives me crazy, more than I am!!!!

Friendship circle

I love that photo!

Back to work

Here I'am back the work, after 2 months out….

It's so hard, but I have to make an effort…. being home was not resulting .....

However I started a new Dufine's cicle and I have ultrasound  next monday.

Let see.

youth's prescription

"Get ride of all not essential numbers to your survival. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctor leaves to be worried about them.

He is paid for that!

have high astral, friends. The " low one"  put you in low.

Keep learning… learns more about computer, gardening, paiting, anything. Do not leave your brain free. A mind without use is the devil's workshop. And the name of this devil is Alzheimer.

Enjoy simple things. Always laughs, much and high, and laughs til losing the breath.

Tears sometime happen. Handle with it, suffers and go toward. The only person who follow you is yourself. It keeps you alive, while you live!

Encircles yourself with things you really love: family, animals, souvenirs, music, plants, one hobby, whatever.

Your home is your shelter. Uses the advantage of your health: If it will be good, preserves it. If it is unstable, improves it. If it is below of this level, asks for aid.

Don't make remorse trips. Travels for the Shopping, for the neighborwood city, a foreign country, but you do not make trips into the past.

And says to yours, that you really love them, in all chances.

Always remembers to you of that: The life is not measured by the number of times that you breathed, but by the moments where you lost the breath: of in such a way laughing… of surprise… of ecstasy… of happiness… "

" There are people who transform the Sun into a simple yellow spot, but also has the ones that make of a simple yellow spot the proper Son"

Pablo Picasso

In memory ......

In our last visit, my father-in-law asked for being alone with my husband. After my husband shaved him and  cuted his hair, he gave express indications of what he wanted we doafter his death.

And, in contrast of what all we waited (he wanted to be in the same hole that my mother-in-law) he asked for to be burned and the ashes were lying to the sea.

Yesterday at 19:00 we accomplished hie last wish!

In all their family, he was who always treated me with much affection and love, and always made everything so the family was joined and happy.

No doubt, he was a GREAT MAN!

By the way his first name was Christo!

Rest in peace ........ and please tell God we don't need to deal with another death so soon!!!!!

More bad news...

05:00 in the morning, the phone ringing.....

My father-in-low passed away!

I'm like a zombie!!!!!!

Unfortunally

I've lost my baby, at nine weeks and 2 days.

I don't have much to say, I am exahust, tired and crying. It still hard to believe ....... They had given me some relaxing pills, I'm trying to get some sleep.

 I don't know how many time it will takes, but in the next times I will be a little absent.

Sorry.

Help!!

Girls, I'm very scared!

After making pee, I looked at and blood. I cleaned myself and really I have blood on the paper.

Colored pink blood.

I've Already called to my husband and the doctor, I'm going now to the hospital, but I am panic and crying.

I'm  9 weeks pregnancy!

9th week pregnancy

"Fetal Development: Cartilage and bones begin to form. The basic structure of the eye is well underway and the tongue begins to develop. The intestines start to move out of the umbilical cord and into the abdomen as the body grows and makes room. The fingers and thumb have appeared but are short and webbed.






Maternal Changes:


You're missing your second period this week. Your breasts may be fuller now than ever before and may feel very sensitive. Wearing a supportive bra can ease some of the tenderness. Your waistline may be growing and you may experience some heartburn and indigestion as your body adjusts to pregnancy hormones. Visit StorkNet's Pregnancy Discomforts page for remedies that helped other parents."

I'm still vomitting, and experimented azia after lunch!

It's snowing here in Lisbon!!!

Here,  it's the 2nd consecutive year that snowed in Lisbon! of the 2 times, it happened in the last weekend of January! In the last year, in the sunday, January 29th, we woke up and it was really very cold!

I was to light the burning, I dealt with the lunch and soon to follow, for the 14:00, the light lacked! Bad! We are watching a movie! My husband, hearing some " noise" on the street, he went to see though the window, if it was something with his car!

Suddenly he started to say: "  look at, look at, look at"! I was soon to observe and I came across myself with that pretty espectáculo!

Clearly that we were the street, to make snow balls (since did not have light to continue to see the film).

This year, the January 28th, were one eleven hours there, we still were lying, but with the open curtains of room and realized that rain was different! I raised and I came across with another beauty espectaculo! Here they are the photos, later to remember! lolololol

8th week pregnancy

I'm so excited!

I arrived now from first ultrasound! Ours baby is so pretty! It is very well and measures already 22 mm. The doctor says that it is very good for the 8 weeks and 2 days.

If I'd already felt pregnant woman … yes…becouse  the nauseas isn't deceptive,now… I feels SUPER-PREGNANT!

His litlle heart beats so such and which to a player of high competition, as my husband says! Now I keep taking the Folicil, Utrogestan and keep on absolute rest!

Ahhh….I've already bought 2 woman pregnant woman pants… lololol… becouse the others the latch is half-open…. lololol

Definelly, I'm sic

I am sic!

Beyond the vomits that almost kill me, I started with diarreia, pains in the body and fever! Yesterday I saw the doctor who said it seems to be a virose and only prescribed me ben-ur-on!

Now eat soup and stay in bed! I wait that pass fast.

7th week pregnancy

"Fetal Development: I'm Tiny But Gaining Fast!



The baby is about 1/3 of an inch, the size of a grain of rice. Development of the arms and legs continue although the fingers and toes haven't yet formed. The brain is growing as well as the lenses of the eyes, nostrils, intestines, pancreas and bronchi.






Maternal Changes:


This week tends to be like last week with the usual symptoms of early pregnancy continuing. You're not showing yet and may have lost a few pounds or gained a few pounds. Both are normal at this stage."

I've lost a few pounds and I'm still vomitting!!!!!

Which is the difference between a dissolution and a solution?

A dissolution would be to put one politician in a tank of acid so that he dissolves himself. A solution would be to put them all!

Which was the biggest event of the year?

I translate:

"For me it's the repetition of the miracle that Portuguese women keep making. They are in the transports  lines at six of the morning to go to work and later the night in house, they go keeping everything as if thery had been there all day. In face what they make every day, everything more in the Country is really nonsense!"

I would say more….it was the last century event! Since women had started to work outside of house!

Today on Portuguese SIC TV

reproduction medically attended.

"In last twenty years the infertility tax duplicated in the occidental word. One in each five people, 20 percent of the population, is collated in this beginning of century with the imperfection of the formula that keeps the species since the beginning of the times: the fruitful meeting between one óvulo and a spermatozoon. They estimated that in Portugal - country aged in an aged continent, where the fall of the natality tax already does not allow at least the renewal of generations - ten a thousand new cases appear every year of infertile couples. The techniques of Procreation Medically Attended developed to an alucinante speed, for much disturbing, and names as of Mário de Sousa and Alberto Barros takes Portugal for the vanguard of the inquiry and application of new techniques. But the country does not have reply for the increase of the number of couples that they need medical aid to have children and that they thicken you celebrate them every year lists of wait of the public centers, in a despairing race against the time. It has studies that they compare the depression level during a treatment against the infertility with the one of sick people with BEEN and cancer. The physical and emotional investment is great e the prices of the private clinics is incomportáveis for the majority of the Portuguese. The insuring ones do not cover treatments against the infertility (But they cover for the change of sex and ttt dexitoxic treatments of alcohol and drugs). Beyond the pollution that attack in them, beyond if postponing each time more the age to have children, who other factors contribute for this reduction of the capacity of the species human being of if reproducing? Doctors and investigators believe that he is possible to prevent great part of the infertility cases, being modified social and sexual habits and behaviors.  as if explains " unexplained infertility " , diagnosised the 10 percent of the infertile couples? News article SIC also approaches the ethical and legal questions excited by the answers of science to this problem of public health. "

It only remains me to be thankful the Elisabeth for having calm obtained transmit what goes in our hearts! After all, you are our INSPIRED MUSE!

To the Dr Mário Sousa that is a great man, who had the courage to put the finger in the wound, and to who I also rised myself to applaud him!

TOGHETHER WE ARE STRONGER!

My husband recognition.....

I'd only had nauseas during the day ...... Today it was the first day where I woke up nauseated! This promises!

They were almost six of the morning and I was already there with the head inside throught the "tron" vomitting!

It's incredible what the pregnancy makes with us ..... we can vomit things that we didn't eat!

lololololol….

yes pq I not eat that much that I vomited! I have eaten a little!

How it is possible spending almost 00:15 vomitting?

My beloved husband, started to be concerned,  and wake up and came to see if I need some help, with a glass of water.

In a bit  moments looking at for me, in this figure, he left himself with: - Ó woman ..... you are very pregnant!

And came back to lie down itself ........

Men….dahahhhhh!

Infertility friends

Today I met two more girls from API forum: Barbara and the Sandra Jorge!

Nice to meet you, prettys!

I've had Already known and talked on-line with the Margarida Frederico (Daisy) - witch cousin is my co-orker and we didn't know,  Norita, Sandra P., and Lurdes Martins!

At last, great women!

Is a boy?....or a girl????

Ok, I'm only 6 weeks pregnant but I wondered if he is boy or girl…. lolololol

My husband liked a boy more than a girl, to continue to family's name  ..... you knows as it is ..... he felt himself pressured years and years by the family, therefore he's the only son, the sisters, as it is logical, had putted the names of their husbands as nicknames of the children!

I liked a girl ..... The clothes are more beautifull and they are much more funny .....

Today I  went out a little this afternoon with my mother in order to buy some underware for me… My soutians didn't fit me anymore ..... I lost my ming with baby's clothes  ..... how cute!
But my mother did not allow me to buy. She says that only after the 12 weeks…. and mother is mother!

Good morning everyone!

Good morning princess!  How are you today??
I woke up very well, and in a better mood ..... it doesn't seems that I took part of the night to vomitting ........

Although not to be a sunny day, I wait that it is a good day and that all you has an excellent work day ..... while I'm still her lieng down...

eheheheheheh

Blood tests

My blood tests are good. The new Beta HCG, gave 408. I have a little bit of anemia (normal on me), but go to have to strengthen the rich diet in and take some special pills, and I'm not only toxoplasmose immune.

I have to have care with the raw fruit and vegetables, (nothing that I already did not yet). In relation to the animals, here in house, beyond us, (ahahahahah) we only have 2 fishes: or they are the 2 of the same sex nor are infertile, becouse since they are here has as much time and nothing of creation!

My left side neighbor, she had cats and dogs but my husband already had gone up the wall of the terrace and moreover it now keeps the animals outside of house!

It's that I love to lie down on chaiselong that I have in the terrace, to read and to get a ten.......

Different pregnancies!

Is full of reason who says that a pregnancy is not equal to another one!

This is not my first pregmancy.

On the first pregnancy, I did not have any symptoms… I lost with 6 weeks. The others two times I already had matinal nauseas but they were different!

Now, I awake in better mood, but I go being nauseated throughout the day! Normally before the lunch start to be zombie. Today I have been veru  nauseated becouse a neighbor started the day to cooking fry fish ..... I had already tooked nausef, but I still feel sic and with a migraine…. it is not strong, but it's bother me!

And staing without making nothing is good for ours minds starting to imagine things ....... and the television is the same sheet ....... Well, I go to sleep, becouse I really have had much sleep! Do you believe that I slept the entire afternoon until  20:00 and I'm already full of sleep again?

I'm Prengnant - a miracle in process

I answered the phone.

Voice of the other side: - Miss J ......?
I: - Yes I am!
Voice of the other side: - Congratulations, you are pregnant! Your Beta HCG  gave 102.
I: I don't believe!
Voice of the other side: - You can believe, miss! You can pick up the result here.

Fear and joy are two of the very contradictory emotions but they had reached that me at the same time! With the eyes full of tears, I only had time to close my computer, saying that it had to go even so and left to run of the work!

As an insane person, I went to Lisbon, I had to pick  the result up and give personally this news to my husband: - takes… see ..... we are pregnant! My husband nor wanted to still believe ..... he's in clouds too, but  both of us have fear to be to dream ......

Pregnant woman and in clouds ..... is how I feel! I have the result with me here…. I take a look some times to be able to believe! We phoned to my doc. that explained me what is happening in my womb … the fertilized egg already completed its seven day the ten days until the womb. Already divided itself in two: a part formed the placenta and another one, the embryo. In the doc's perspective, I'm exactly being pregnant of two weeks and some days, technical, I am pregnant of almost five weeks. They counting is from the start of my last menstrual period, that was the 3 of December.

Inside of me is hapenning a storm. With five weeks, my embryo measures only two millimeters, but all the organsare already in development. Even the eyes are already to start to be formed.

Its not wonderful? How can a human being that measures only two millimeters to make me feel like that? Doc explained me that the nausea is becouse the raised level of estrogénio and also to the fast expansion of the womb. -

" I go to be thus nauseated for next nine months?
" - Calm, many of the symptoms are going to disappear in second trimester. Now we go to book the ultrasound and goes to be in house of ABSOLUTE rest!

Only leaves the bed to go the bath,ok ......? -
Yes, doc, all the sacrifices are valid to have my son with me! Moreover my husband and my mother go themselves personally to put in charge to guarantee this!

I have as much fear to be to dream and to wake up suddenly ..........

It was how I felt last week (and I still feel)!

"Your period has just started and you may be thinking about conception. For women with a 28 day cycle, ovulation occurs around 14 days after the start of your menstrual cycle. Now is a good time to begin healthy habits (if you haven't yet!). Start your pregnancy diet with plenty of fresh fruits and vegetables; exercise; start taking additional folic acid if you haven't already; and stop smoking, drinking alcohol, and using over-the-counter medications. Stay away from toxic materials and rest well. Start "thinking pregnant" before you conceive so you can give your baby the best start possible. "

As I don't smoke nor I don't drink alcohol, only in very special occasions, it doesn't have problems ..... I only drunk a glass of champaigne goblet in end of the year… I hope there's no problems!

I didn't have nor I have morning symptoms, but throughout the day I go being nauseated and sic! My blood pressure decreased so much! I exactly arrived to faint one day in the bath! It had to make Beta HCG….

But I've too much fear! Yesterday, I looked at for the solicitation and I thought " I'm going tomorrow".

Today, as I couldn't keep on in this away, I awake myself early, I went to the laboratory, to made the blood test and ask they to inform as soon as they know the result!

However I went to work… is my first day on this year! And the nausea appeared on half a day ..... I thought that these symptoms would be only a suggestion or a triky of my mind!

Until becouse I've had already passed for this before and it was not nothing ...... Until the mobille ring .......